I had never been so close to tragedy, never witnessed the way hearts can splinter and crack. I was twenty years old, and it was too much. I was broken, after it happened; I was constantly breaking.
In a world obsessed with physical results, these subtleties of help and support, so nuanced and delicate, had escaped my awareness.
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The First Day is, of course, about beginnings. It’s about starting fresh and starting new. It’s about seeing each day as an opportunity, a chance for beauty and love and wholeness and growth.
Of course having never won anything in my life, the first thing I did was scream. Then I realized the true test of my fanaticism was to come: Could I make it in time?
Letting go gives us freedom….
We can learn about ourselves in many ways, by doing all kinds of things. We learn by interacting with people, by taking on new roles, by doing different kinds of work. But in my life, sitting down and being with me–not distracting myself with music, or books, or TV, or screens, or my thoughts–has been the hardest, bravest, and most rewarding.
Perhaps in this new year, I can resolve to be open to what follows, to where another chapter leads.
It’s of no use to look back….
I have suffered for years. I have endured betrayals and job losses and the pain of love and the absence of love. Seeing what others need and taking care of them comes naturally to me, but it doesn’t come as naturally to nurture my own needs. I have not been very good at being there for me.
Each time a big change comes in my life, I have a tendency to focus on loss instead of gain. The loss of time, the loss of comfort, the loss of mental space.